Yearning

As I continue my journey with God, I realize that I become a lot more self-aware. I notice things about myself that I never did before. I take this as good sign that God is working inside me.

One thing I notice is that I have a deep yearning for approval and acceptance by my peers / colleagues. I have the tendency to seek out the "good job" and "you were great" praises from those around me.

I believe we were born with such yearning. I believe deep inside we all desire to be accepted and feel others approve of us. I believe God put the yearning inside us the very moment we came to exist.

However, this yearning is extremely dangerous when pointed at the wrong sources. It creates anxiety, insecurity, and pride in us as we become enslaved to the pursuit of praise by others.

I believe we apply the inherent yearning that God gave us in the wrong directions. We direct the yearning at humans instead and we forget why God gave us this deep desire in the first place.

We forget that It was and always will be meant to drive us to direct our gaze upon our creator. God wants us to yearn deeply for Him. We should be yearning for His approval instead.

He already accepts us the way we are.